Happy

John took this picture of Avery and I today, and so far it is my favorite of the 2 of us. It makes me smile every time I pull it up and look at it. I made it my profile picture on facebook because I like it so much. Of course, the reason I probably like it so much is because I actually felt like a human being due to the fact that I managed to shower, do my hair and wear non maternity clothes! haha I also like the silly little look on her face. She was making silly faces in most of the ones he took, but this is the one that I look the best in. Sorry Avery! :)

Random Ramblings of an Insomniac

I can't sleep. It's 2:32 in the morning and I have to get up with the kids at 7 and I am wide awake. I'm talking middle of the day awake. Sigh.

So what do I do? Get on the computer of course. Maybe if I can get all the thoughts out of my head, they will shut up and I can fall asleep. Hey, how's that for wishful thinking.

Most likely culprit? My new medication. Ugh. I just switched to Wellbutrin. I took Paxil - made me feel like a zombie. Effexor - I felt like I was on speed. Or should I say what I THINK it would feel like to be on speed. John was at my dr's appointment and was like, yeah because you have a history of taking speed. Ha! Of course the papers with my new meds say that if I have trouble sleeping it may be because I took them too close to bedtime. Well how was I supposed to know that 7 pm was too close to 2 am? Seriously! Ugh!

So . . . what are some things that are going on . . . . .

I found a house for us to look at tomorrow. It's in Mona. I'm not sure where that is, but according to yahoo maps, it's 30 min away from Provo. Which is as far as I want to live away from John's work. The house is amazing and 2 years old. Then again, it is frustrating to look at houses here when I don't know for sure that we're going to stay here.

I hope we're at least staying the summer because I just registered for my classes and it would suck to have to move because I would probably end up not being able to take summer semester. I'm taking Math 1010 (ugh), Psych 1100, Nutrition 1020, and Bio 1010. I am not happy that I had to sign up for the Nutrition class that is Tues/Thurs. I already have a Friday night class and a Saturday morning class, and I didn't want to be away from home more than that. I got Bio as a telecourse, so that should be easy. I am looking forward to that class, since I have actually watched that class at like 3 am when I couldn't sleep. Hey, I was bored and at least it's educational and surprisingly interesting. Anyway, I am wait listed for the Nutrition online class. I just have to pray and cross my fingers that I get into it. It is going to be an easy class, so I don't want to waste time away from my family to take it in person. In person classes are for, like, math. Which I would fail if I took online. I have thought about just taking 3 classes for summer, but I already have the whole next year of classes planned out so that I can apply to the nursing program next spring. I don't want to have to add it to another packed semester or put off applying to the program over one stupid class. So I may have to suck it up. At least the class is only 'til the middle of July. It's a 10 wk. class I think. But hopefully things will work out the way I want them to. This is what happens when you are just starting school, so you don't have very many credits. You are last to get to register, so the classes you planned on taking are already taken.

What I really want to do is take guitar. In fact I might still take that if I really don't want to be gone 2 nights a week for Nutrition 1020. I could always add it as an online class for another semester if I had to, since it will be an easy class. I told John that I really want to take guitar, and that I was going to use some of my grant to buy myself a nicer guitar. Yes I have one, but I don't think it would be adequate for taking a class. Anyway, he rolled his eyes at me. Then he was talking about my singing and doing something with that and I was like - hey, remember what I just said about guitar?? He was like you don't need to play guitar to sing. True, but it would help me with my song writing. I can hear the music in my head, but it's not piano music so it never comes across right. I think if I could play guitar I would be able to actually get it out the way I want to. So we shall see . . . . After all, I think I should be able to take one fun class. I will get in the guitar and voice classes I want to take at some point. I have a whole list of classes I want to take for fun. Just because they sound interesting and I like learning things. I will probably still be taking classes when my kids are in college. Ha!

Man, I just caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror (my bed is opposite the master bath, and the huge mirror over the vanity) and yikes! Hello lion from the Wizard of Oz, and what did you do with Michele?? That's what I get for letting my hair air dry and have a break from the hair dryer. I am SO going to have to do something about that in the morning.

John has been doing the HCG diet. He has been naughty and not followed it completely, but he has still averaged 14 lbs in a week. However, I lost 6 and I didn't starve or have to give myself injections. I just started eating more salad and less crap. Hmmm, funny how that works. I have a supply of it so I can try it, but I can't do it until Hayden is done nursing. Which won't be any time soon. He is a little fatty, and I'm pretty sure he would be content to nurse 24/7 if he could get me to agree with it. Sorry, but no. There is a reason I made sure he had a binky from day one. After Brooklyn and Amelia not taking one, I will be a human pacifier no more!

Lately I have wanted to get my nose pierced. Just a little diamond stud. Dumb, right? But I have always wanted to and I just want to do it to see how it would look, so I can have done it. Even if I don't keep it in. I seriously think about it all day. Maybe I am having a age 30 crisis. LOL! I just want to try it just to try it, so I can tell myself I did it. I figure I wanted my tattoo for like 6 years before I got it, and I still like it 12 years later. My mom said I would be sorry, but so far so good. I have wanted to pierce my nose about that long. Just never had the guts to do it. I watched a video of it on youtube. It looks like it hurts like a mother. But I just want to try it, just to see. I don't know though. John doesn't like it, but I know tons of people who have it done and I think it's really hot. If my family is reading this, just don't even start. This is my blog and I can think out loud about whatever I want if I want to. And I am 30 and my own boss. The End.

Ok, well now that I got some of that craziness out of my head I am going to try and go to sleep. After all it's 3 and I have to get up in 4 hours. At least after the kids leave for school I can go back to sleep for a little bit. Maybe. Maybe not since I have to go to Salt Lake. Well, I better get a nap then. I guess I better take my meds now, so I can take the second dose in the early afternoon. Hope that helps. At least so far I'm not feeling all jittery and hyped up, like I did with the Effexor. Now let's just hope for some sleep!

All About Me On My Birthday

Since today is my

29th BIRTHDAY

I thought it would be fun to do a list of some random things you may not know about me. I would have added a picture, but I was too lazy. So without further ado:

29 Random Things You May Not Know About Me:

1. I probably drink a 2 litre of Diet Coke a day (yeah, I know. it's my crack. no chastising comments please)

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2. I have been in several musical productions, including Music Man, Pirates of Penzance, Grease and Phantom of the Opera.

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3. My favorite foods are sushi and tacos, and I would probably eat them together.

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4. Sometimes I have to wash a load of laundry several times because I can't manage to remember to take it out of the washing machine.

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5. I have been asked to sing in Sacrament Meeting and Relief Society, but have been putting it off because it scares me to sing in front of people I know and see all the time.

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6. I care WAY too much about what other people think and it stops me from doing the things I really want to do. (see #5)

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7. If I start washing dishes, doing laundry or trying on clothes, I will suddenly, without warning have to pee so bad I feel like my bladder will explode. Every time. Without fail. Don't know what that's about.

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8. Sometimes I watch Hannah Montana after my kids are in bed. (don't judge me. it's a cute show.)

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9. I have perfect pitch and I was told by my HS band teacher that I should get a job where I listen to and critique or judge people's music because I can listen and immediately hear who or what is off. I used to do it in band practice all the time and she always said I was right on.

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10. I am afraid of the dark. I have 2 nightlights in my bedroom, and 1 in every other room in my house.

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11. I am totally obsessed with Law and Order. It is my favorite show and if they came out with box sets of all the seasons, I would totally buy them.

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12. John and I are in the middle of planning our move back to California, which will hopefully take place after the kids get out of school in May.

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13. John and I started couples therapy, and the guy we're seeing is freakin' awesome. Even John loves him, which is really saying something.

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14. I have to be in the mood for eggs or they make me gag. I think they're creepy.

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15. I love reading. I get so into a book you could stand in front of me and yell and I wouldn't know you were there. I am also a super fast reader. I read Gone With the Wind in one day, and all the Twilight books in 2.

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16. I absolutely love scrapbooking. I could do it for hours and not even know it. Sometimes when I can't sleep I will start scrapbooking and be up 'til like 4 in the morning.

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17. Since I was little, I have wanted to work in the NICU. I hope to start taking some online classes and then go back full time when I finally have all my kids in school.

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18. I remember almost everything from when I was little. I remember moving to a new house when I was 2, specific situations or conversations at school with my friends in AZ (where I lived til I was 9), what I wore my first day of school in California, etc. I even remember and feel the same emotions I felt when the memories occured when I think about them. My husband doesn't remember much from when he was little and thinks I'm a freak. (he's probably right.)

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19. I wish my family members weren't so judgemental. All my life the one thing I have wanted more than anything has been to feel like my family supports me and is proud of me, but I don't believe that will ever happen.

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20. I have been to 25 out of 50 states and 3 countries. I hope to someday make it to all 50, and several more countries.

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21. My husband always is talking about wanting to go on vacation without the kids, but I am too afraid something will happen to us and my kids will end up orphans. (yes I'm extremely paranoid)

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22. I am a MAJOR control freak.

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23. Everyone I know thinks I am so outspoken and outgoing, but really I am VERY shy and insecure and just want people to be my friend.

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24. I am totally jealous that Hailey and Brooklyn are taking ballet. I always wanted to dance, but when I was little we couldn't afford it and when we could afford it, I was too busy with band and flags.

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25. When people comment on all my kids and wonder how I do it, I tell them I wonder the same thing. They think I'm kidding, but I'm not.

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26. After my divorce, I found myself 23 and single with a 3 1/2 year old and a 4 month old. I swore that I was never going to have more kids (and even broke up with someone I was engaged to that wanted lots of kids). Then, 2 weeks before I turned 25, I married someone that had 3 kids and immediately got pregnant. Oh, the irony!

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27. I don't really like other people's kids, but I do daycare 3 days a week so I can make money while I stay home with mine.

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28. Someday I want to be in the Mormon Tabernacle Choir.

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29. I like to impress my kids with my mad swing flag skills. (what can I say? I miss it and they're easily impressed. haha!).